Starting 2468 tommorow and I hope it goes well i really want ot loose weight tho so I migt just go 234 who knows. I really want ot get down to 45 kg for when I go see my family I want them to be proud of me not embaressed. I am sooooo huge right now I am the fatest I have ever been and i feel horrible all my friends have gorgeous bodies and they have gorgeous boyfriends and i am stuck being the fat gross friend grrrr i am just so annoyed at myself for letting me get this way its disguisting xoxo

I haven't eaten yet and i hope i wont but i have submitted a request to goin proana and i think that that will help me i really need to talk with and get advice form people who are going through what i am. I just really need to loose this weight i am so unhappy in my own skin i am disguisting. The biggest compliment i have been given in my life was at a social when a boy pointed to me and his friend said no i am not dancing with her she is ugly and i thought omg he didnt say she is fat. xoxo

I am trying my best not to eat and drinking when i am hungry so i feel full but then its just like i can help it i go and eat something form the fridge. I am not one of those girls who have a perfect body and think they are fat because i actually i look in the mirror everyday and nearly throw up. I really need help i need people to help me so please guys help i need to lose weight so my parents will love me and that my friends will be pround of me i need to i want to loose 20 kg so thats like 44 Ibs for most of the people on here. HELP ME. I hope that i and everyone can get to be good friends on here. xoxo